Once again...as i enter the hols those thoughts that i once was able to put away somewhere in the back of my head bounced back to the surface again...yeah i shudn't have escape or hide...and now i am suffering from the consequences...after reading my cousin's blog, i begin to realise ppl who are born on the same date share the same experiences huh...haha...okie..think tt is juz a coincidence...but at least he can vent it out on his skating n jamming...me? hip hop? haha...lost touch with it for almost half a yr now...forgot the steps oso...see if i can let things go n once again...enter into my escapade...haha...okie...that is pretty bad...

Things that were said n done a yr ago may not be valid now...things will just drag on n on for me, sem after sem...i'm quite sick of this type of life...and after so many pathetic years in sec sch n jc...i lost the courage somehow...yeah...if only things will go back to the way it were...and someone please solve the 2 mysteries i have had in my mind or heart or wherever it is now...if not i think i can be forever lost n confused...

Sometimes i truly hate myself...for being so stupid so timid so soft hearted...doing all the wrong things at the wrong time...hai...life is full of pretense for me huh...so it seems...really so sick of it...it will be better not to think about it...but soon after, something will happen again and make u think...this is so idiotic...to think i have lived for so long yet being stumped by this kind of problems...yeah...tt is so so so so stupid...but well...is there anyone who is not stumped at any age? no matter how old or young? okie...think i duno wad i m tokin...so better shuddup...

Tmr is a brand new day at cdac! workin after studies...hai..hope we'll have fun!!

Current Song Playing: Ming Ming Hen Ai Ni - Fish Leong n Pin Guan
Counting Down to the Big Day: 11 Days...



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Ended my post @ 11:49:00 PM

YaY! The Hols is Finally here n the horrible exams gone! at long last...it was a total madness today especially once i stepped out of MPSH 5...but I wasnt the most crazy one...haha...suat is the siao gal fer the day!

Half of the sec sch supposed clique went out today...tt is me, miao n suat...created chaos at Kbox - cineleisure...n I think it's precisely cuz of this that the ppl in charge gave us extra one hour of singing time in the big big room...hehe...haven had such a great laugh since duno when le...perhaps not only we r the most crazy one ard...the room diagonally opp ours...they were singing and dancing at the same time! the best thing is...the one who sang n danced to the Chinese song is a malay ger! besT! as for the nx room...they were practically shouting n not singing...we kinda have a "competition" with them...haha...cuz they all sing out of tune...erm...not that we r that good...haah...but it all arises out of our madness...my favourite part of the day is to sing the super old sonG...haha...our fave childhood idol...put it this way...n tt was the most enjoyable parT! lookin at the weird dress sense the idol had in the past n those farnie actions...that we tot he was so shuai when we were in pri school...i cant believe it! he is 30 yrs old le!!! okie...he's none other than Jimmy Lin! disappeared in the music industry all of a sudden...involved in car racing...cooL!!! okie...i'm too siao over sports car n car racing that my dad dun let me go learn driving...haha...scared i anyhow go speed on expressway ba...oopS...nvm...i shall go learn soon!!! mayb nx yr? muz go save up 1st...envious of those who drive...hmm...on second tot...mayb i shud enjoy the luxury of being chauffeured =P hehe...that is better...

We really had a relaxing time today...after 6 papers...can go crazy indeed...n now i still can rem the geog facts...coriolis force vs the hurricane! oopS...

Aye! couldnt get to buy Jack Jack de pillow at maC!!!! sian diao...doubt they still have it...muz go try NUS de mac liao lo lydat...mayb can go bac on sat when we play badminton...yeah...my hols muz be super happening! hmm...duno if i hav the energy not...haha...go work then confirm v tired...but nevertheless...every monday nite shall be K-ing session @ AMK! cheaper la...muz save money...i v giam one...hehe...nd to scrimp n save so tt i can pay my so many loans...n to learn driving!!! hehe...this yr dun hav chalet le...i wana go bac KL!!! Berjaya timesquaRe!!! Luv the room! super niCe...luxurious living sia...nx yr after my bday i shall go overseas!!! i wana go aust,KL,HK,Cruise,Europe,NZ,China....did i miss out any other country? haha...so many places to go yet so poor...arGh...shall not be too greedy...go cruise n KL 1st...when grad tt time then go further...hee...

Hmmm...after complaining so much abt Zn...finally i'm feelin much better...haha...but sadly...when i tot by throwin him alone to go home will end my misery...i'm so so so wrong! pengZ...knew it onli when a msg came in at midnite ytd...totally sian diao! now that my exams are over...i think my brain will start to malfunction again...haha...as i have said in the previous entry...goin to enter a state of confusion again...hmm...mayb everything is juz fated la...so i shall juz wait n see...really quite mad at myself for losing grip last sem...n in the end i lost so many things...as for this sem...i seem to have learnt a lot...yet i m still faced with one prob...to let go...hope i will succeed soon...n things will go bac to the way it used to be before...especially a frenship that is much treasured...but then again it takes 2 hands to clap...i shall juz let nature take its course...n hope everything goes the way that it is supposed to go...well...at least in my mind...

Current song playing: Qing Tian (to think i forgot the title at KBox!)
Counting down to the Big 2-0!!! : 12 days --> My Lucky no! (hmm...y m i so excited? haha...)



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Ended my post @ 1:10:00 AM

YaY!! aT long last...the paper is finally goin to finish le! but then now i a bit bo sim study...within one day so many things can happen...now then i noe...like drama lydat...n it's happening in my life...no wonder ppl sae...ren sheng ru xi, xi ru ren sheng...

Yesterday was the 1st day i went to a concert...Jay's concert...n it's compliment from the horrible Zn...it's a wonder why i Went huh...Rejected to go straight in his face sooooooooo many times...n with a very good reason somemore...that the concert was right smack in my exam...I hate myself sia...for not having learnt not to be soft hearted...even after so many 'warnings' n advices given to me since jc...Ended up being forced to go...thou the forcings are not explicit...just threw me one ticket...somemore sae is his bday present...hai...think i m a 3 yr old kiD? i mean quite impossible that parents will buy him a 200++ worth of tix for a bday present...but anyway...ask him to giv to his other frens to watch...say not enuff time...lame reason...juz threw me the tix n ran off...biangZ...y everytime lydat de! n if i not going...den he wun go...should hav maybe sold it or ask my cousin to go...

Went to the concert in the end...haha...he can see i m tensed huh...not cuz of my papers but it's cuz of him! biangZ...never change at all can!!!! tried to stand quite far away frm him, sit far away frm him...but he happily came closer...Grr...feel like bashing him....maybe nx time s09 got gathering wun go liao...suddenly in the middle of the concert i was lookin at the guy's,in front of me, hp...tryin to look at the pix he took...then this stupid idiot grab my neck n ask if i was tired...Bish bish bish!!! the concert would have been great if it's not for him...it'll be better to go with my best frens or sth...at least can high together...haha...confirm super high one...but it's him! grr...Yeah i tink my lesson is learnt...stay far far away from him...shudn't have tot that he has changed...A leopard never changes his spots...

Enough abt him for a moment..As for the concert...the qi fen is there sia...super high!! then the songs n Jay's performance was superb! esp the grand piano!!! Luv it man!! with guest appearances by nan quan ma ma n wen lan...beginning to like nan quan's songs le...duno is it bcos of the same reason as buyin another grp's album...oh well...shant think too much on tt...hao bu rong yi convince myself not to think n concentrate on studies...now...durin the concert the tots kip poppin out again...duno it's cuz of the songs or cuz of me goin to so free after the exams...the feeling of live concert to me like a dream sia...or rather ytd nite is so much like a dream to me...see Jay so small...but he is v cool! shuai dai le...! okie not good i m goin crazy...haha...hai...zhi xiang hui dao guo qu...

After the concert...I did sth bad...initially is goin home with him...after that saw RJ n Yan Jun...was so so so happy...n excited...hahaah...den threw him there n went off with them...duno is it a good thing or a bad thinG...to make him angry (i tink) but me guilty...din tot of it till i was on the way out...hmmm...mayb at least (i hope) he wun 'pester' me le...but then as a fren...throw him there is really v bad...hai...but now i m having another prob le la...same prob as last time...super confused state...n it all happened in a nite's time...hai...din mention the drama part here...but for those who noe me well enuff...shud noe wad i m thinkin or where the drama lies...

shall end here...striving for one more paper...! translation! here i come! LoL...see ya guys real soon!!

Current Song playing: Mo Ri Zhi Lian - Z Chen



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Ended my post @ 10:33:00 AM

Wow...been complained for MIA-ing for so long...I think about near 3 months? oops...sorry ppl..have been super busy with my school work and not forgetting the horrible projects and exams I'm going to have...suddenly I luv my life without a computer or an internet...though this means less chatting with my frens online...anyway my comp was down and not it's bac! so am I! hee...

Horrible projects...why do i say that they are horrible? cuz of the stupid ppl I met in the project group...cant come to a consensus! and we r always not on the right track and they are ever not cooperating...getting so sick and fed up of them since day 1...! and how can this be the longest project for this whole sem?!?! I'm really suffering in this stupid group...! I doubt we can get high marks for this proj to think that we cant even cooperate at all! really terrible experience...this sem is not going the right way for me!

But then again, at least this sem i get to be in the same module as my frens...as in sec sch clique...and the most enjoyable proj i did this sem would be with them! suat..thanx for introducing me to your bunch of frens ar! haha...nice lunching frens to have...hehe...so let's see if i'll still see u all next sem...

Yep...many things happened...and I've also learnt something...how to let go and don't cling on to it...cuz if u keep clingin on to sth...the one who is suffering will be yourself...so let go...no matter what consequence or end result u may get...Life is full of changes...full of ups and downs...I think this sem I've learnt to face some of these challenges...hmm...so this may not be a bad sem as i think it is...hee...

Whatever the case is...I just hope things will go right again...and now I still have my exams to worry about...haven even been studying! die liao...6 modules a sem for me is really hell..! to think that I'm like a arts student rather than a re student this sem...grr...n i m poor with my essays!!! hai...anyway...i shall just count down...to 29 nov when i will have my last paper for the sem!!! after that at least can play liao! haha...lookin forward to dec!!!!!!! hehe....see ya ppl ard...and all the best for exams!



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Ended my post @ 8:41:00 AM