有些事就是如此难以分别
往往都只有一线之差
一生活了二十一年
始终无法将友情和爱情分辨清楚

从文字上来看
爱情是从友谊开始
在朋友之上给多几点的关怀、照顾
感觉上跟朋友的差别也是差不多啊

哎 我就是这么无聊
想了这么无聊的东西

清华大学的生活就将要结束了
周一的考试也终于结束了
至于那莫不着头脑的投资估算
我也就随便以我了解的程度把它完成了

忽然之间
我好像迷失了方向
应该收拾行李
却又不知从何开始

课程表我也由天而定
不知该选修政治还是房产投资政策的我
就索兴两门课都选了
看最终我能拿到哪一门课

现在有点儿无所事事
一心只想往外跑
利用最后几天
走完整个北京城

但是冬季的阴天
让人有点儿想睡
就一直呆在宿舍
享受暖器带来的温暖

哎 有时候就是这样矛盾



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Ended my post @ 6:12:00 PM

圣诞节就这样过了
这一天就是连雪的踪影都没看见
圣诞老人和他那可爱的雪鹿也没出现
可能使他们都迷了路吧

圣诞老爷爷 我今年的确很乖
为何你没送我任何礼物呢？
没礼物也就算了
为什么没帮我实现下雪的愿望啊？

好啦 没下雪 我也认命了
现在就求你让我明天的考试能顺利地通过
讨论课业能够表现得好
那我就心满意足了

也要感谢您啦
虽然没雪
但天气还算好
温度就在零以上

勇敢的我
就只穿了一层长袖上衣 连围巾也搁在宿舍里
披上一件外套
就往外跑了

还好不会太冷
不如我就会冻得像雪人一样
就站在原地
一动也不动

我就和圣诞老爷爷一样
在北京城里迷了路
还好是有朋友陪伴
否则我也不知所措

说实在的 这个经验也蛮不错
原本圣诞节就没什么节目
就这样阴差阳错 搭错车
在北京海淀区兜了一圈
时间也就一分一秒过去了

现在才知道北京公交车站的指示牌是信不过的
同样的地方能有不同的名字
同样名字却不代表是同一个地方
而且公交说改就改
路线说换就换

最终我们就兜了个圈
回到校外的亚洲面吧
享受了美味的晚餐
度过了圣诞的夜晚

路上都是一片宁静
大家都到荷花市场庆祝了吗？
还是平安夜玩得太疯
到今天还躲在屋里冬眠

圣诞节的夜晚
我也该回去温书
至少今天算是游览了海淀区

啊 天气预报说周四会有雪
真是如此吗？
但愿预报是准确的
至少让我见到雪人
才回返新加坡吧


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Ended my post @ 8:11:00 PM

隐约地听见圣诞歌曲从宿舍窗外传来
也听见了圣诞节的祝福
每年的这一天都希望有人陪着我度过
可惜至今他还没出现

在街上逛着的时候
都会见到幸福的人们拿着一束束美丽的玫瑰
还有五颜六色的气球
真是有点儿羡慕

每当我看到这种情景
都不自觉地感到孤单
尤其是在国外的我
家人都不在我身边

庆幸的是还有朋友的陪伴

刚才到了一个有些陌生的新加坡人的家吃了圣诞晚餐
原以为自己像是个不速之客
人家没请你却厚着脸皮上门去
出门前还有些迟疑
不知是否应该到那儿去 不如就在食堂解决晚餐吧

出了校门口就渐渐的感染到佳节的气氛
一家大小、情侣、朋友
加上那购物商场传来的圣诞歌曲
人人都忙着购买圣诞装饰、礼物
服务员们也都戴上了圣诞帽
心想 在北京度过圣诞也不错嘛
就只差没下雪

到了华清家园
感觉就好像回到了新加坡的组屋区
无论是建筑或是停车场的设计
和新加坡的组屋区一模一样
突然有种回家的感觉

进了10号楼
感觉有点儿阴森森的
走廊都是暗暗的
朋友一说我才了
原来是为了省电
只要有稍微大一点儿的声音
灯就会亮起
好一个省电的办法

到了305单位
大家都到齐了
一眼望去 还真是没有一个我认识的
听见有人跟我说 Hi
是主人的声音
但是blurblur的我还是不见他的踪影
实在是太多人了

晚餐是美味的MeeSiam
在新不吃MeeSiam的我
竟然在北京吃MeeSiam
呵呵~
主人煮的真是好吃！
还有甜点AgarAgar

美味佳肴并不是这晚餐聚会的重点
来到了北京我才体会到世界的渺小
竟然在北京碰到3年没联系的旧同事！
还好我没忘了她的名字 呵呵~
不如场面就会有点儿尴尬

这个聚会也让我交了一些新的朋友
感受了2小时的温暖
就像是一个大家庭
这份温情是无法用文字形容的

现在想了想
我的顾虑都是多余的
往往事情都没有我想象中的那样

还蛮庆幸自己到了最后还是到了那朋友的家
否则也不会让我碰到老朋友
也不会让我认识其他的同学

有些事情想起来也是蛮奇怪
这就是所谓的缘分吧
有缘大家才会聚在一块儿
有缘大家才会成为朋友
真的是要珍惜这种一切
惜缘

圣诞节快乐！


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Ended my post @ 11:37:00 PM

今年的平安夜
和往年不同
原以为能见到白皑皑的雪景
现在虽然天气正好
冬天却又不是特冷
但是到处最多也只见薄冰
雪啊
你在哪儿？

今年一点儿圣诞节的气氛都没有
四处的装饰是少之又少
最多也只是几棵圣诞树
什么灯饰啊 都不见它们的踪影
圣诞节的铃声
你听见了吗？

想到周一要考试又要准备讨论的ppt
什么心情都没了
原还想玩雪球大战
造个雪人合照
看样子希望全都落空了

圣诞礼物是没有啦
但是让我感到意外的
是收到了一份电子邮件传来的祝福
而且还是好久都没联系的高中朋友给我发的祝福
还蛮开心的 =)

今年的圣诞
应该也没什么庆祝了吧
就只希望今晚能够下一场大雪吧


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Ended my post @ 2:40:00 PM

又是这样
温书始终无法专心
脑海里除了想着考试
还有未完成的作业
加上下学期的课程表
还没买的东西
还没到过的旅游景点
还有好多好多的事情

突然听见火车的笛声
就有股冲动想写日志

还剩大约两周
就回到熟悉的环境
心想
不知那儿会有什么改变
回去的生活又会是怎样
应该是十分忙碌吧
又得工作又得读书
再也不会像现在的生活
如此悠闲
只顾读书和游玩
还有时间吃上两小时的晚餐

现在的心情也不知怎么形容
已经对北京有了一点儿归属感
开始结交新的朋友
却是到了离别的时候

就剩两个星期
早上再不会有服务员来打扰
也再不会听到火车的笛声
更不会在三更半夜还有人在球场上打球
感觉上还是有些依依不舍
回想念这儿的生活、朋友、老师

我不能说我在学习上学了很多
因为我仍然是懵懵懂懂
但是在这儿的短短一学期
我的视角已变得更宽阔
有了不少的领悟
也开始懂得珍惜
懂得宽容
懂得如何包容

有时候换换环境也是件好事
这次的交换生活
让我认识到来自不同国家的朋友
接触到他们的文化
也让我体会到朋友的重要
当然
我也对中国的生活方式
有了更深的了解

我想这些会比在学识上增添的知识来得更可贵吧


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Ended my post @ 11:54:00 AM

Weird huh..now i really believe what they mean by birds of the same feather flock together..we really think alike..haha..miaoz..although i m not in sg doesn't mean i won't be there for u..hee..as i said..you can always come find me for anything..happy or sad..yeah..our story..can repeat yr after yr..and the whole scene still lives in my mind..haha..1st sec 1 fren..anybody wana hear our story? haha..

had so many things that i wana blog about when i log in to my blog..but suddenly my mind is in a blank..

suddenly remembered that I need to settle some stuff when i get back..must settle asap..cannot drag..but wait till i gather the ruthlessness and courage needed first..hahah..no no..i m not going to commit a murder or wad..sometimes i wonder..why am i so soft hearted..it is a plus..yet it is also a bad point..yeah..since young kana bullied..and i never learn how to defend for myself..aiyo..sad case..haha..sometimes i think i should not be blinded by the superficial..must think..critical thinking..haa..crapz..

Oh ya..must thank kor!! for sending the xmas wishes..but a bit farnie ar..i in beijing, u send to my house..how am i goin to receive it on xmas!!! Aiyo..nothing to sae..haha..but at least u finally got sim to send me a card =P

Shall blog tmr..now mind in a mess liao..cant think rite again..Anyway..Happy Dong Zhi to all!!

Suddenly got the motivation to study hard hard...Jiayou!! Muz get sufficient rest when i touch down..then cheong for the sem!!!


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Ended my post @ 9:34:00 PM

To all my dear friends who are getting results soon..dun worry too much..this seems to be like a every sem thing for us..when exams are near..we get stressed..after exams..we complain how badly we have done..and dun wan the results to be out..but still..this is juz part and parcel of life that we have to accept..I know it's hard not to worry..I still remember when exams are near for me..I will get crazy and do lotsa stupid things...(okie..i admit i always do stupid and crazy things not only during the exam period..haha..) and i will eat a lot..mayb that explains why i m getting all so chubby now..Argh..anyway..what I wan to say is..things will not turn out as bad as you think..so dun worry okie!! You have my support..hee..Jia You!

Hmm..miao..I have to admit that my parents dun push me to do well..it's all me..since young they dun push me to study..I just dun wana gu1 fu4 their hard work and money to put me through Uni..tt's why i wana do well..although i know it will be tough..and it is virtually impossible to get a 1st class..never even became top in class in the years of my life..1st class honours? dream on..

You have been doing well..as in actively involved in ccas..you are capable of it..me..slacker..haha..wana join cca..but duno what to join and no courage to join also..sounds stupid rite..join cca oso need courage..haha..cos i think it will b quite tough for me to gel in..and the commitment..hmm..cant commit la..so really pei fu you all..so actively involved in ccas..at least uni life will mean something to u when u think bac..unlike me..lifeless..

Anywayz..Guess I m fated to remain the way I am..haha..wana change style also cannot change..wad the heck..giv ppl money earn they also dun wan..haha..k..shall try to get back to my books..monday exams!! aRgh!! hate exams..


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Ended my post @ 7:45:00 PM

Time to blog in english..hee..had been quite used to chinese especially after doing so many assignments in Chinese..anyway..must have a good grasp of both languages..Crapz..

Anyway..went for this students' Festival performance by the school of aki last thu..it was really nice..although i have to admit i nearly fell asleep..was too tired for the past few nites..even till now..i m still not in the mood to do anything..juz wana slack and munch on my tidbits..which i did..finished one whole pack of biscuits..wonder how can i not grow fat with such a diet..lol..2 more weeks..n i will have no more stress over assignments..as if i m stress now..haha..

Well..the performance was rather traditional i would call it..more cheena n cultural..as compared to civil engin de performance which was a blend of traditional and modern..more young..the dean's speech is super duper long!! all the achievements and stuff..*YawnZ* the best part about the performance was the graduate display..showed their lives over the past few yrs in Tsinghua..made me realised how dull and boring NUS life is for me..not only is there no fix class..Frens are like hi-bye type..no strong bonds either..maybe it's just me..slacker in school..never join any ccas..activities yes..but i wonder why is it so diff to gel in with them..yeah..cos i din go for my o-camp..perhaps that was my mistake..o-camp can really allow u to make lotsa frens..especially if u are lucky to be with nice people..well..to regret now is all too late la..

3 more sems to go and i m outta NUS..hai..4 yrs past and i won't know what I actually did..and what my life is all about other than studying studying and studying -_- just glad that I still have my secondary school frens to accompany me thru this journey..diff facs but at least those k-club sessions and hols job were fun..just that it din happen in school..no sense of belonging to Nus..always have to drag my feet there from home..and rush bac right after lessons..kind of a sad place..haha..

Unlike in Tsinghua..they made good frens here..accompany them thru the 4 yrs of uni education..stayed in the same dorms..had many wonderful memories together..all 3 meals in school..have their fave stalls in the canteen..and every part of the school forms part of their memory..if ever NUS have such graduation stance..i think i will be touched just that i dun remember any part of the school that forms a v big impact in my life..haha..maybe MPSH..where i got lost b4 i became part of the school..and where all the exams and sufferings are..All the songs and performance and the DV the tsinghua students did..are still vividly in my mind..playing over n over again..very sweet moment..

And it makes me wonder too..what will my life be like after graduation? Right now studying seems to be all about grades and not any knowledge gain..I did learn a lot..just that sem after sem..i will just forget what i learnt previously..just like now..no memory of any real estate stuff..haha..pathetic..superficial knowledge yes..but go deeper..kill me..returned everything to my profs..

So much about wanting to get a 1st class honours..not to waste such a high amount of money on tertiary ed..at least that will be sth to do my parents proud..but being who I am..hmm..i wonder..this will all be a dream..that cannot be fulfilled..

Why must this world be so practical..so materialistic..and why must singapore be so pragmatic..everyone is working so hard..for wad? for money..so that one can lead a comfy life..what's the use of renovating and making ur house so nice and warm..when u wun even be spending most of the time there but in your office..or out travelling? Sometimes I wonder..Why is money so important..? hai..

Imagine slogging for the rest of ur life just to earn lotsa vitamin m..like me..have to get back to work and study at the same time..earn more to pay off the stupid tuition fees..and at least i will have some money to buy things that I wan..I admit I dun really get a lot frm my pay la..at such a low rate..but i love the company there..different bunch of frens..one big family..complain together..scold patrons together..haha..oops..sometimes i m juz tired la..i only have a pair of hands..yet muz juggle so many things at the same time..I am not a clown lor..not trained to do such juggling act..cant life be a bit simpler? be a little more relaxed?

I will be lost on the t-junction when my commencement draws near..have to look for jobs..no more playing..must face all the harsh reality..think i may just faint there..the stress u get at that level..will be much higher than what u get in school..Argh..As u read my blog..u can see that my thoughts are in a big mess again..haiz..

Life..such a complex system..grad liaoz..so wad nx..work n work..till the day u...................


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Ended my post @ 4:58:00 PM

在北京的交换生活就快结束了
难免会有点儿依依不舍
毕竟在这儿让我结交了很多好朋友
也让我学习到在课本上学不到的东西

就好像人生并不是那么完美
说自己可怜之前
先考虑到那些在寒冷的冬天
没有一个暖和的被盖
没有一间温暖的房子
却得睡在马路旁
每天无论是晴天还是挂着风
都过着相同日子的人
等待路人的慷慨解囊
捐钱让他们温饱肚子

原来从小就躲在新加坡的我
真是像我爸所说的那样
如此无知、幼稚
以为全世界的人都那么的幸福
以为人生道路真能如此平坦
一旦碰到小挫折
就觉得快要世界末日了
说出去
真是给人笑话

这一趟到北京来
不能说已变得成熟、独立
我依然是我
始终那么孩子气
那么幼稚

但起码让我开阔了视眼
见识了地球的另一端
也把以前遗忘的中文记起来
对中文与文化
也有另一番的见解

美好的事物都是短暂的
不知不觉
圣诞铃声就要响起
元旦的钟声也紧跟在后

交换之旅的人生舞台剧
也即将落幕
而每一幕的快乐与欢笑
都将被收藏在脑后
成为甜美的回忆

而回忆就像褪色的相片
一切都无法重演
就算添上了颜色
依然只能回味

只能将它编写成一本小说
一本名为人生旅途的小说
而回忆就只能在脑海里反复地重播

看着那些所拍的旧相片
也会发现相片不是为他人而拍
而是为自己留下生命的足迹
也对生命中的过路人留下一丝的记忆

交换生涯这一本小说
就只剩下最后三章未完成
希望能把它写得精彩丰富
写出一个完美的终结篇


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Ended my post @ 1:20:00 AM

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃连拥抱
都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情
还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人
是不是同一个
真实的你

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里


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Ended my post @ 11:54:00 PM

没有男朋友也不代表每人疼爱 总会有家人的关怀与爱戴
在家里是我能惭愧地说我并没深深地体会到这种感觉
但是今天我终于体会到了！
真感动！ 谢谢你们！

就在我忙于干报告的当儿 电话突然响起
拿起了听筒 另一边传来的是服务员的声音
告诉我楼下有我的信件 叫我到那儿去取信
放下了电话 我就到楼下去
心想又是哪位仁兄给我寄信了

一到21号楼的服务柜台
两名长得秀丽的服务员都忙着给老外解释铁通卡的使用方法
我就站在那儿等 冷风就一直吹着 好冷！
谁叫我只穿了拖鞋和薄薄的长袖衣和长裤 套了一件外套就往楼下去
服务员终于忙完了 问我有什么是
心想不是他们叫我下来取信的吗？ 还问什么废话！
以前帮我打扫房间的那位好心服务员就从抽屉拿出了一叠信件
想帮我找我的信
只见她把一封银色的信封搁在一旁
继续在那叠信件中找寻我的信
我望着那银色的信封
看了看字体
怎么是如此的熟悉
原来那就是我老爸的字迹！
一见到那封信就突然暖和起来了！
管他什么冷风 呵呵~

一路走回房间都是一脸笑嘻嘻的样子 心里甜滋滋的
不知道发生什么事的人都会以为我是神经病吧 哈哈~
打开信封 只见一只可爱的小熊拿着湘滨向我祝贺
祝我 21 生日快乐！
嗯 是早了一些啦
可是又有谁管它呢！呵呵~
看见卡片里的内容 我是如此的开心！
可是也不自觉地感到惭愧
因为好像不久前还弄我老爸生气呢 =x
不管了 父女之间没有隔夜仇的吧 呵呵~
好啦 以后我就乖乖听话 不再让老爸担心、生气
（会尽力做到这点的 =P）
谢谢老爸！
（还有没忘了我老妈和老弟！）

21岁倒数5天！


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Ended my post @ 5:31:00 PM

今年的生日应该会是最难忘的吧
虽然说是还没到 可是我已收到了第一份礼物！
世上就美好的礼物！
而这是用钱也买不到的
呵呵~ 真开心

要感谢老天爷那么眷顾我
让我实现这个愿望
让我能看见北京第一场雪

虽然这一切是短暂的 而且也只不过是小雪
但是心中却充满着那种说不出的快乐和兴奋

现在终于体会到雪的美、雪的浪漫
雪花有节奏感地飘落在地上
形成一幅美丽的风景画
我的心情也跟着轻松了

等待真的是值得的
虽然短暂 但也因如此才能显出它的可贵

期盼下一场雪的到来
也期盼等到一个美丽故事的开始......


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Ended my post @ 2:02:00 AM

Woah..imagine eating a cup of hot fudge sundae at a temperature of -2deg c..haha..call me crazy..but I did that..! hee..it was quite cool..alright..the temp n the ice cream are all cool..hee..but yeah..once in a lifetime experience! eating ice cream that wun melt..heh..

Negative temps are not that cold really..If..N i mean IF u walk..without any wind blowing and slapping against your face..you will be just fine..provided you are properly wrapped up..but well..things are not the same when the wind is blowing crazily and you are cycling on the roads..Yeah..First time ever that I experienced what ppl always warned me about in the cold..ears turning red and getting painful..(try holding an ice cube and place it on ur ear..you may get just the same effect..)Nose as well..it's like as if it has frozen..gotten all numbed..and you wun noe it till you pricked with pain..omg..

But well..still looking forward to snow..hee..weather forecast has it that there will be 40% chance of it snowing later tonight..hmm..but well..they keep changing!!! How to believe them!! Qi si Wo le..Qi Pian Wo de Gan qing!! Anyway..just hope that they are accurate..and i can get to see snow falling from the sky tonight!!!

Alright..Bac to work now..Tata..~~

Counting Down to the Milestone of my life: 11 days...
Counting Down to Santa: 24 days...
Counting Down to Seeing Merlion: 40++ Days...

Current Song Playing: Winter Wonderland...


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Ended my post @ 5:47:00 PM

此时此刻的我应该是在快马加鞭地赶完那堆积如山的作业
可是我就是我嘛 哪有可能这么乖 这么专心去完成作业 呵呵

刚想起昨天和中学的那群死党谈心的那个情景
已经有好久没这么聊天了 而一聊就聊上了半天的时间
这种感觉好好哦
能自由自在地把烦恼和忧愁通通说出来
让好朋友一起分忧
也回想起过去所做的傻事
让整个聊天室充满了欢笑
嗨 好想念以前的那段日子

自从我们上了初院以后
大家就各分东西 整天就忙着课外活动、忙着读书
和彼此的联络就越来越少了
惭愧的是 就算再网上见到对方也只会打个招呼 什么都没聊
就继续忙于自己的功课 连彼此的生活近况如何也不去过问
现在难得我在国外还有这个机会和姐妹们谈心 真是好可贵啊！

这或许就是忙碌、紧张、现实的都市生活所造成的吧
人人都活在忙碌中 虽然心里会想念 却始终放不下工作与朋友会面
抽出时间过一天或是半天的悠闲生活 真是如此的难事吗？
就算能赚几百万的钱 但是生活没有了情趣 这还会有什么意义呢？
嗨 真是搞不懂

好 就别说这个了
这也不是我想在网上日记写的事
想写的 其实是想感激那群中学死党
这份友谊和默契不是一朝一夕就得到的
已经九年了
这一路走来并非如此平坦
（嗯 怎么写着写着有点儿像在写感情的路程？ 呵呵）
我们都有吵架不合的时候
甚至还会在彼此背后捅几刀
（嗯 没这么严重啦 就只是生气时在那儿和其他姐妹说某某某的不是罢了呵呵）
可是这坎坷的道路上我们并没有放弃彼此
反而因为这些小插曲让我们更珍惜、更了解对方
虽然有一段很长的时间没有联系 但这份友谊还存在
直到现在

虽说姐妹们各自都有了疼爱她们的另一半
也没影响到我们如此坚固的友谊
或许没有以往那么常见
但是知道在失落的时候
总会有一群好姐妹在那儿给予支持
而在开心的时候
也有她们和你分享、和你疯狂

这份友谊真是难能可贵啊！
谢谢你们在这路上给我的包容、体谅、陪伴、支持
友谊万岁！ =）


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Ended my post @ 4:47:00 PM