It's over..done-D..and i cannot do anything le..although it is still quite crap to me..Pls...Let me pass..Let me grad..I dun wana waste more money just to do thesis..tot do finish le den wun stress..some how maybe it is still somewhere at the back of my mind weighing my whole head down..but I am really very touched and thankful for everyone who has been tolerant with me, helping me..and supporting me all the while during this period of time.. =) Really a terrible time for me..emotional breakdown duno how many times..haha..horrible..wing's life is totally messed up..

Wana thank my parents oso..especially dad fetchin me to n from sch..my mum..helpin me buy stuff..n my dear..hee..pei me all the way oso =) today oso had a good time out..de-stress..think I am almost smiling non stop..haha..watched epic movie..v lame..laugh till peng..the only thing is raining whole day..but still okie la..nothing can spoil my mood..hee..

Tmr gonna start sch again..still tired..hai..then gotta bia my project liao..sian sian..faster finish the group projects..then one more individual project..then paradise..haha..okie..one more hurdle to clear..exams..haha...

Hope to relax first then start work baz..

Wing Wing Jia you...!!!! All the Way!!!

Labels: Thankful...

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Labels: Fireworks...

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Ended my post @ 11:54:00 AM

Had quite a good time ytd..tired..busy..doing project..but at least to top it all off there is still a steamboat for dinner..haha..the atmosphere was quite re nao..quite like it..if not it is back to an empty house..haha..with my thesis waiting for me on the table..no wonder when ppl left i become quite sianz..

Shall wait for nx yr de steamboat ba..if there is still time for one..(high chance that there wun be one though..hai..)

Duno wad to blog oso..having a little giddy spell..not totally giddy..but for some specific reason and without takin my iron tablet..my leg a bit wobbly..haha..head oso on cloud nine some where..not high la..but heavy..hai..

Hope my tiredness faster go away..

Labels: Emo..

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Ended my post @ 11:20:00 AM

Seems like I have been living in my own shadows..still not walking out of it..还过不了自己的那一关...

Terrible feeling..Maybe as miao says..I am just too tired..I need a long break..after week 10 I supposed..when 2 major projects are done leaving one 5k word proj individual de..hai..ain't this final yr supposed to be more slack? more enjoy life? at least according to my seniors..why my life end up so..er..fun..ya rite..

Maybe the initial choice was a wrong move..haha..Kept making wrong decisions..choosing the wrong topic..Maybe i just dun hav the calibre to make decisions..hahaha..wad the heck..but once I have made a choice..I just have to move on la..try to do my best..given such a short time..

Heck

I am just tired..

Labels: Emo..

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Ended my post @ 12:19:00 PM

Wish everyone a happy pig yr ahead =P

First day of cny..finally came..so super fast..(someone pls dun remind me that 28 feb is coming..) slp at wee hrs again ytd..tireD..tell me why the weather so not windy..so hot..so..smells hazy to me..againz..i m in the new yr mood but..tired of everything somehow..hahaz...ironic girl as i always am..

Woke up at 10..k la..jumped up..cos nt used to wakin up late on first day of new yr..but cos ytd everyone slept late..(other than my gd life bro..hai..) i was the first to wake up however..did the deco for my house..lighten my dad's load a bit..i wonder y i hav so much enthu to do other things rather than erm..ya..my serious stuff..haha..

Finally put on my nice nice tube dress..haha..not used to wearin tube dress la..first is fat..second..the tube dress can easily drop one..i mean when i sit la..dun feel v secure..cos with my little cousins..one pull..tt's it..wahaha..oops..but took some pix with my dearest meh meh..haha..got chance then upload..but mayb tooo ugly then i juz kip for my own viewin pleasure..haha..

Din go many places..went to temple to pay respect to my grandparents..then my aunt's house for lunch..then to my jiu gong's house..yeah..basically my chu yi is as usual one..other than not going to chun dao he pan this yr..well..at least went to chinatown ytd..gettin stomped n squashed..haha..

Okie la..now reach home liao..feel like slpin de..but suddenly mayb it's too hot so felt awake..hai..sian sian wing..cannot..muz be enthu cos it's the new yr!!!

Have a great cny to all once again..

-Tryin to be happy and not thinkin too much de wing..haha..~-

Labels: Festive MooD..New yr goodies

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Ended my post @ 8:23:00 PM

It's fun shoppin midnite for new yr goodies..just zoomin all ard the hypermart searching for the goodies i wan..haha..n playin on the trolley with my bro as usual..haha..but the thing is..although amk ntuc xtra is big..there isn't much things left on the self..maybe we came too late..all my faves..glory cookies..goneZ..sobz..hope i can get it at ntuc ys later..not forgettin the 5 for 10bucks goodies at np..haha..oops..

But well..on the road at lentor..there's a race going on..3 cabs and one private car..haha..includin my dad of cos..haha..all the vehicles are lined as if on the startin line..waitin for the light to turn green..and ZooM..whoosh they went..haha..but my dad (altho in the middle lane) over took the rest la..hahaha...so zai..

Reached home was the scary part..2 drunkards were found..at the carpark below my block..one still okie..his frens were tryin hard to carry him to the main road..but he seems too high la..haha..the other..i tot he was dead..cos he was lying on the ground..yeah..on the hard solid surface of the carpark..near the rubbish chute..gawd..if ppl din see him there goes his life..totally no movements de lo..scary..and nobody bothered about him..but after wad seemed 20 min..he finally tossed over..haha..at least he isn't dead..

Oh wellz..nite was fun but mornin kana scold and nag for no reason..wad the heck..spoil my morning..

Labels: Happening NitE...Blue Morning..

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Ended my post @ 12:34:00 PM

Tired wing back to make a post..

Thanx miao n suat..Enjoyed the company..

Seems like such a happening day today..ran all over arts for lessons n submit assignment..no time for lunch..had onli sandwich..but it's nice..vege sandwich..yummy..plus milo..yummilicious..haha..but the weather is so hot..melted in the sun..esp gotta run all over nus..walked back to sde with a bagful of notes to return to my snr..she so chio!! princess curls..haha..no la..wadever the name of the perm..she looks super princessy..ppl..imagine rainie yang..not the act cute version..elegant one..and a bit crazy oso..haha..in singapore! GawD..so nice..i oso wana make tt..but sadly i dun hav the face..tink i got a squarish n guyish face..my gawd...wad's wrong with me..haha..Born totally wrong..somehow..haa..

Hmm..somehow my nite seems so wrong oso..something is missing..guess I am really getting too used to things..hai..seem a little moodless to do things oso..heart flew somewhere else for a holiday i guess..anyway..shall do my sch work tmr morning..hope can finish..den nx week..shall b fully proj wk..cny burnt..heng work onli one day..but seem nt enuff..haha..thesis..tt idiotic monster..hope it will progress well oso..Wing is so not in the mooD...

Labels: Heart on Holiday...

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Ended my post @ 11:15:00 PM

I guess i'm gonna get super temperamental again..die..haha..slept at 4 ytd..clearin my stack of newspapers..n my dad too..cleaned the kitchen till den..mayb i shudnt complain..cos he onli has 2.5 hrs of slp..kind of get reprimanded..cos this yr i hav been busy cleaning my room onli..til ytd since my rm is more or less done..helped in the kitchen..being the water girl..hai..but there's sch n everything else..i do wana help..but..not much time oso..my life seems quite torn..haha..but to think of it..y is it tt my bro cn play 24hrs a day..n no nd to help out..ain't it unfair..oh..nt to sae he's sick..but when he's nt..there's always the excuse tt he is too young to help..

His attitude towards some stuff also gets on my nerves..i mean..u joined a cca...n quit cos u got scolded..mayb then i shud hav juz quit mine yrs ago..everytime i get scolded..n my dad allowed..gawd..can't imagine when he gets into ns..kana scold by officer..cannot take it..den how..no way to quit..u hav no choice but to tolerate..Dun understand y my dad so zong rong him..there is always the gender discrimination or sth..zhong nan qing nv..been feelin that way since young..but told my mum n she said there's no favourism towards any side..i mean ya..sometimes i admit they r v nice to me..but when i m his age..meet such stuff..i duno la..mayb juz tt our characters v different..soft spoken yes..but..mayb i get scolded too many times when i was a kid..i m the rebellious type..a cry baby yet a rebel..wahha..wad the heck..

Anyway..enough on my bro..fa xie enough liao..mayb i m juz eatin sour grapes..ytd teach him hw at nite..i tried v hard not to scold him..here i m tryin to teach him when i can do so many other stuff..there he is dozing off..and lose his temper on me..wad the heck..but at least at the end of it he got thank me..if not i can juz hack him into pieces..hahah..oops..

There's always both sides to a coin..on the other side of the pasture..he is a sweet lil bro..esp when i was packin my stuff n saw the cards he drew for me when he's a small boy..haha..really melts my heart..but now..okie la..sometimes he in gd mood will come cover blanket for me..hahaha...if i slp earlier than him that is..and when i m havin a fight with my dad..he will oso come console me..n kai dao me..wahhaha..

Hai..this cny can't be mei mei le..sleepin at such wee hours..lack of slp..can b a princess tarepanda..wahah..sianz..

There's still this evil monster haunting me..my thesis..lingering somewhere in my mind..tt's y felt so temperamental at midnite..haha..esp when my dad talks abt it..dead..i noe i m dead..but i can't pull myself to face it some how..crapz..almost made me lose my sleep..almost..but i tot..heck..i shud juz slp at worry the next morning..

But well..Am glad that at least I had an enjoyable day ytd..having dinner by the river under the starry nite..hee..watchin ppl go past..n the cultural performance..haha..nice nice surprise oso..hee..wing is a happy girl..hee..

K laz..gotta go sch le...if not late again..(which is..as usual..) Take care aLL..BuAiZ...

Labels: Temperamental Winter

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Ended my post @ 10:19:00 AM

Can anyone tell me wad's the whole purpose of studyin so hard to get a piece of paper?
Why cant life be simpler..
Why are they so much competition ard such that there isnt what we have in pri or sec sch...
just Pure friendship..
rather..now in uni..most ppl juz make friends to make use of them..some how..

Maybe it's juz my weird thinking again..but..ya..i juz yearn for a simple life..
Is it that difficult to be realised?

The World out there is just so cruel..
Scolding ppl for the sake of their own pleasure..
Wad the Heck...


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Ended my post @ 12:49:00 PM

One week has past..think I am still stagnant-Ed..yeaH..in my sch work that is..Whether am I still in the Escap-isM Mode..not very sure..but at least mood improved a lot..bac to my crazy self..haha..thx to my parents for the enlightenment..some how..haha..and my guardian devil for listening to my complaints and proBz..hee..managed to lift up my spirits some how oso =P xie xie..

Wing is now tired..physically tired..been up till the middle of the nite max 3am..doing spring cleaning..now splitting headche..must be the sun now..super hot..pls rain..or better..snow..awahhwah..yeah daydreaming..i missed my snow..haha..hot hot then no mood do work..onli feel like sleepin..haha..still got quite a lot to do..my bro's rm settle..mine left a bit..my parents' rm, living rm and kitchen..waH..tired..y cny so fast come..the onli good thing is can wear new clothes..haha..can wear nice nice for a day =P

Anyway..been to 2 career fairs so far..a mini one org by the DE club..another one NUS de..hai..dun like going into the workin world..juz too scary..i mean so many back stabbin n politics..sian diaoz..as my fren said..i go into the society kana luan dao kan si..get shot oso duno wad happened..hahaha..well said..tt's precisely y i hate the tot of going out to work..sch is much better..can juz act blur..see if i can continue actin blur at work baz..hahah..

Did up resume at last..not easy sia..and it's not a gd one..submitted 2 resume..but duno if they will call..hmm..shall cling on to my phone frm now on..haha..tired wing..feel like sleeping..shall go off first..till the nx incoherent entry..haha..


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Ended my post @ 5:02:00 PM

有时候朋友说得对
奇怪的我
成天只会自讨苦吃
脑子总爱东想西想
想些有的没的
自寻烦恼

就拿论文来说
明明是能去年完成
至少有假期
足足一个月的时间
贪玩的我
就只爱到处逛
和朋友会面
聊天、叙旧

现在可好了
有一对事务要忙
忙得晕头转向
脑子一片空白
原来大四生涯
没想象中的简单
感觉上
我也快要疯了

又有谁能救我
唉~
简直是自找麻烦
我
快要闭关修炼
与世隔绝
陷入忧郁状态了


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Ended my post @ 3:16:00 PM

In the escap-ism mode now...

Realised for a moment I can stop bothering about tutorials and any revision..those can wait till cny then do..at least spend one day to do..guess my choice about not going work is quite right..requested only one day..but that will mean I have no money for the month..so shall feast on bread again..haha..haven been feastin on bread for some time..haha..muz thank miao and suat..my lunch buddies this sem..but it's good la..cos at least we bothered to take some time out for lunch..then can meet up..not to say that takin the same module on mon and alternate tues is not meetin up la..but it's still good..especially fri those lunchtime entertainers frm peanut oil n say yong..haha..

Though I have kind of finished my tutorials for this week..I m still left with urban planning..wad are planning strategies..? I have no clue on it..imagine takin urban plannin for the 2nd sem n not knowin wad the heck the prof is talkin..shall leave that till maybe thu..today is full blast thesis..*cross fingers n pray*

Suddenly tot of this that I forgot to blog tt day..on sat while doin proj at amk mac..got weird ppl come and ask me for foolscap paper..haha..okie la..not weird..but somehow duno how he spotted me with foolscap paper..asked for 3..wanted to charge him 10cents..hahaha..okie la..tt was juz meant to b for fun..then earlier that day..my p3 fren oso asked me for 3 foolscap paper..haha..kip givin out foolscap paper tt day..can change job le la..go sell foolscap paper =P

And here's some gd news..that the lions won..! haha..it's a bit of a stale piece of news..but still..so happy for them..they deserve the champion..consecutive 2 leagues..hee..way to go! got new idols on my list le..the match was again exciting..i mean i m practically shoutin at home..haha..gave me a gd avenue to relieve my stress oso..cos i can shout for some reason..hahah..a soccer match is really dependent on the referee..if the referee is kayu..or corrupted..or biase..that's it la..Khairul Amri..n Lionel Lewis..heros for the nite..haha..MVP..noh alam shah..extremely cute..ahha..i mean if u all catch his expression when he was awarded the 2 prizes..haha..oops..

Hmm..had a long day ytd..by the time i reached home..was tired..but at least had a good day..throw my worries into the sea @ vivo for a moment...haha..although it's all swimming back to me now..watched gridiron gang..the movie that i duno how to pronounce till now..haha..it's a nice movie..meaningful..actually oso touching..true stories are always nice..i guess being someone who can change a person's or many people's lives is really remarkable..earn my respect..cos it is not an easy job..have to always stay firm..and rational..haha..at least u cant get ur emotions all running cross ur mind..affectin all ur actions n words..

Dinner had a hot plate of wanton mee..haha..not that it's on hot plate..but the auntie happily make a plate of hot n spicy noodle for me..den i dun dare to eat..so now i noe how to control me frm eatin le..haha..reached home almost get scolding frm my dad..not scold la..but made him unhappy for one moment..reason #1..he juz woke up..so mood not realli there..reason #2..he wana buy new wardrobe for me..but given my character..i will analyse every single thing then will go buy..cos i noe bro wan a new wardrobe..so i dun mind using my own..but now dad wana buy for me means bro gotta get a old one again..tink he wun like it oso..cos dad initially promised to buy him one not me..hai..then my room oso too small liao..duno where to put the wardrobe..think my room going to get a new orientation again..means muz shift my puzzles liao..hai..stupid upgradin ppl..make so much noise now..hai..how to concentrate sia..got bitten by mosquito while typin this..grr..

just figured out that the sentosa express is workin..haha..miao, suat, stel and kor..i wan my belated bday present leh..haha..not a physical present..but as in tt of going to sentosa..haha..when are we free...mid term break? hahaha...

k la..think i have blabbered enough nonsense now..had a weird weird dream ytd oso..muz b crazy liao..haha..on second tot..i have never been normal..so wad crap i tokin..haha..shall go do work le..tata~


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Ended my post @ 10:30:00 AM

Just feel like blogging..feel like screaming..so many things to be done..so little time..thanks to myself not planning ahead..No motivation..Seriously I think wad my mgr said last time was rite..I cannot work under stress..work under stress I think I wun do well..take my own sweet time? then i will do damn slow..wad the heck..Duno how i am going to do work lydat..Now reallie duno how to prioritise..spring cleaning, tutorials, projects, thesis..all on the list..and still hav to pass dini her bday gift..hai..goin crazy..

Anyway..shall talk about sth else first..

Happy Birthday was a nice show..touching..a movie that needs tissue..haha..but I wonder in reality if such a good person exist..some things are really worth waiting..but if the wait is too long..will the person/thing still wait? Sidetrack a bit..Louis Koo..realli shuai..haha =P

Watched soccer finals on wed..at Nat stadium..reallie high..but the controvesial penalty..eh..oso duno wad the heck is going on...did the thai player pull alam shah? shall just wait for the verdict..anyway tot was quite funny..cos they dun allow us to bring in any can nor bottle..and not even coconut..hahaha..they scared fight or spectators throw coconut at the winning team isit..haha..strict security...

Hai..incoherent blog here..cos not reallie in the mood..shall go eat my dessert now..hope all tension go away..


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Ended my post @ 5:41:00 PM