I nd to keep myself occupied..

Realised Jm always seem so happy..so cheerful..
Maybe volunteerin really brings him the happiness..
to be ard with all the kids..
Think I should realli join him..
I have been lettin it drag for a very long time..
think he also wana kill me..haha..
Promised to join him when i started work..
The onli prob is i haven found work..
haha..

Nx up..
There will b the Jap lang and Hip Hop to take up..
But no kaki for hip hop!!
haiyo..
Join jie den I will b super stress..
all pro..waahha..
I noe I have been sayin countless of times..
But lazy wing..haven accomplish anythin..

And my btt..
Haha..
Comin soon..

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*~*SmilEz*~*


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Ended my post @ 1:13:00 PM

Messy me..
Messy mind..
Everything in my life seems in a big mess..
So super messed up..

The weekends..
were spent watching movies and dramas..
It was great..
to spend time at home..
Just that tots start to run wild..
start to think about many things..
Listening to those sad music..
Loosen the tap some how..
Perhaps it's also cos of the rainy weather..
that makes the atmosphere so gloomy..

Ironically..
I love rainy days..
Once I told someone I like to see the rain splatter across the window..
and he/she commented that I like lightning..
O well..
I haven seen lightning in this rainy season..

Today shall be a better day..
Had fun playing audi @ mac..
With ppl lookin at us play..
haha..
kinda weird..

And now..
I seriously miss those days studyin at mac..
Believe it or not..
I am takin out my JC notes now..
Not that I will start studyin over again..
But perhaps just nostalgia..

Still remembered wad our principal said..
about studyin at mac..
"You study at mac to smell fries,
and you will get F for ur study.."

How true is it?
0% True..
haha..
A's was spent at library..
Uni was spent at mac..
but stil we did well..
not excellent..
but still we managed to survive..

For all those out there,
those lucky chaps who are stil studyin..
All the best..
Treasure those school days..
Cos you will bound to missed it..
Like I do..

Miss all my frens~!


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Ended my post @ 11:17:00 AM

why do ppl always misunderstand..
I already tried to make them happy..
to please them..

Yet..

it seems i m doin all wrong..

Perhaps my existence is realli a mistake..
a garbage frm the rubbish chute..

sagitarrians supposed to cheer ppl up..ppl feel happy with their presence..

But why not me?

I mean why cant i be happy with my own presence?

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.hate.


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Ended my post @ 12:07:00 AM

Sudden gush of sadness..no idea why..
Was it cos of the mention of the name?
Was it cos of the things done which we were supposed to do?
Was it...

No idea..
But ya..it's not a frown..
nor a curve..
just plain straight =
Think the sudden change was obvious..
but dun wish to talk..

Things that u tell..
not to us..
but..

...

Nvm..

Dotz..

End of story..

Not to think too much..

Did so much..
Mayb just to get some attention..
Like wad I always do..
perhaps..
So that there will be sth to talk about..

Perhaps..

...

Tmr..

Will be a better day..

I hope..

&

I pray..

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Ended my post @ 11:27:00 PM

Nice saturday..stay home saturday..with a good start..it's really like waking up from a dream..heh..a million thanx to dear..for his ai xin delivery..sorry left you stranded at the doorstep..cos of this lazy pig here who slp till dun wana wake up..hee..

Juz finished reading a local paper..so there is a report on the rosy outlook for graduates to find jobs..congrats to all those who found..It's just a wonder why newspaper report are kind of lopsided..they see the bigger picture..but pay no attention to the small details..they just love to amplify on the goodness of things..and leave out those which are not..

So here is the comments of the hard luck club amidst the good luck club..as they call the class of 2007..

It's graduation..and everybody is happy on the special day..a once in a lifetime event..a memorable event definitely..while some managed to secure jobs right after the exams..some others..are taking a long time..not that they are fussy..but maybe it's that they are in the wrong course or sth..but..still..ppl are sayin that the property boom should provide RE graduates with good prospects and of cos maybe good money..with the real experience of job application and interviews proved otherwise..out of the many resumes sent out..we dun receive 100% offers..like some lucky chap..and please dun go ard interviewing those rich and smart ppl..who will say things like "Money is not the worry.." Oh purlease..of cos it's not a worry..mayb news articles really focuses on the rich and the upper end..and forgotten about those lower..maybe..

But I am thankful for this report..cos it let me realised that what some people are offered..are way too low compared to the market rate now..it's a booming market..and everything is increasing..and of cos with the 7% GST coming in..those who require to pay off their study loan really need sth more than what they are offered so that they can sustain themselves as well as help to lighten the load of the family..

Yes..some ppl are taking the time off as a holiday to slowly search for sth of their liking..and it seems like a reality that interest and money are negatively correlated..oh crap..why am I startin all the statistics..O well..I hope things are really as good as what the report says..I am not fussy..just that employers are also choosy..with a wide array of grads they can choose from..and maybe some other factors render me unfit for work..Much that I like to work in somewhere I enjoy..Perhaps..I am not left with much choice..

Many other plans come across my mind..to enter NIE..to obtain a scholarship and pursue another degree..haha..maybe that will be a dumb idea..since I will be spending another 4 years when I could have taken a Master's..or maybe I should do both master's and degree concurrently..I wonder do they offer such a scheme..haha..that is really to go for my interest..to set a path for the future..It's my wish..ungranted..Many other courses interest me..there is the language..Jap, korean, bahasa maybe..and also translation..

So many wishes..so many needs..but limited resources..Shall seek a positive mind and secure a job..hoping that some one out there..would not render me unfit for work again..

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Ended my post @ 2:43:00 PM

活在人生的交叉口
也是人生的转折点
像是从高中到大学
但此时的挑战
比从前来得更多
责任也更大

现在的我
需要面对不少的难题
再也不像小孩子
能有那么天真
无忧无虑的生活

也需要作出许多决定
但是现在的我还学不会
只懂得逃避

或许过了这段日子
生活能回到从前
能回到快乐、开心的生活
只能希望我开始学会坚强
脑子里最好是一片空白
存着美好的回忆
不需要有太多的顾虑
就这样过着简单、快乐的生活

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Ended my post @ 5:08:00 PM

Missy Wing is a red haired girl!

Although this will last like onli for a few days..since my hair is too black to absorb any colour..anyway..quite like the colour..let me lian awhile..haha..although my fringe destroyed the whole image..cos it's short..and overall..look weird and ugly le la..haha..nvm..change image..maybe realli can zhuan3 yun4..

Finally get to watch my magicians of love last 2 episodes..got woken up by 2 calls..Purlease..I already got over it..I just got over it..and you have to do this to me..Nvm..shall update again tmr..

Sat was quite fun..sorry that I may have spoiled ppl's mood..I dun mean to..promised cal not to go home with a sad face..thanx for the flower..I will look at it and smile with my eyes half covered like the flower..haha..finally went to merlion park..happy..been wanting to go there since duno when..and it's nice to get sprayed by the merlion's water..although it's salty..haha..but I like the feeling of it..tempted to just walk down each and every single steps..haha..

Thanx dear..cal..and the rest who made the day fun..really just lost my soul for a moment..but over the weekend..I have picked myself up..so don't worry guys..I am fine le..after the haircut..also felt a bit refreshed..although more gong3..haha..nvm..my fringe will come bac..

But it is also through this that made me learnt something..人事部 真的是 不是人 dotz..it's really a test for me..and i must learn to conquer it..Shall continue watchin my drama..continue another time..

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Ended my post @ 9:27:00 AM

Sometimes I just feel envious of other ppl..but I know that I shouldn't feel this way..cos everyone's life is different..so one should not compare..rather than spendin the time to feel sad over it..should spend time tryin to adapt to it..and try to solve it..or better still..(I duno if this works better) just try not to think about it..and as they say..let nature takes its course..and dun worry about it..

I dun wish to have these endless worries..cos it's really making my head very heavy..but well..if you dun think about it..will you just leave it and not go about doing anything about it? and end up things will just get worse..but if you try to do more to salvage things..you will hav more worries..and end up suffering..

That's life..full of contradictions..and everything is a challenge..

Ytd my fren made a remark..
She: oH..so xx's life is better than yours..
ask your parents to help la..

Me: Parents are also not that rich..so I hav to settle it myself..

She: use CPF la..

Me: Sorri..my dad dun hav CPF..

...

It makes me think..seriously..we shouldn't be too reliant on parents..why is it like the whole world is tellin me to ask parents for help..Excuse me..if my family is like so rich..why do I still hav to work part time? and get my hands all burnt? this is crap..If you are rich..that's your biz..but please spare a tot for others..and put urself in their shoes..of cos they hav difficulties that's why need to save money..and eating bread for lunch..(Yeah..someone commented that she dun understand why she see chinese torturin themselves just to save money..and y i dun go shopping..crap..) O well..if you dun go ard shopping..you wun hav to spend..and you can save up for future use..has my thinkin changed? I wonder..

This new chapter of life that I will be facing may change the way I think..I shall try not to compare with others..since each and everyone's life is unique..it is there in this manner for a reason..it's a test..and I should learn to face it..and not run away from it..I shouldn't be too reliant and seek attention..although sometimes a little attention is necessart..if I solve everything myself..I will probably die earlier..ha..Shall put all negative tots about others aside..think of the bright side..think of the positive side..ppl are not born bad and evil..so I shall try to search for the good side of them..

Wing shall try not to be lazy..nothing is more important than family and friends..as the valedictorian said..place them above anything material..that's wad he learnt in the past 4 years of study in uni..you reap what you sow..things may seem unfair at times..but..I guess this saying really holds..with friends they make your life happier..family as well..I may not be someone who holds career as top priority..that's just my duty..to pay off loans..haha..I shall try to find more time for my family and friends as well..n mayb join Jm at the SSC..maybe that will be fun..

I wonder what the future has in store for me..and I shall learn to control my own life and future..and not leave it to others..

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Ended my post @ 12:57:00 PM

Linus & me!

sweet babe peiyi & I'm spoilin the photo..haha..

reluctantly..my worse nitemare..oops..

pc & me..and our dearest..haha..
I still like hers more!! i wan one too!! 4ever frenz bear..

the moment i've been waitin for..
Throw as high as we can!!

after hat throwin with messy hair-do..

mel & Me..

do,re,mi..
fish, me & Peiyi...

dad & me..
@ my grandparent's place..

Oh well..the day finally ended..it ended well..with fire works! haha..I wish I hav magical powers and a wand..not a stick..haha..I still haven had enough of the pix..but after my hair cut..i can't tie it this way le..sobz..

4 years of uni..

End of a chapter in life..

forgot wad i wana write le..

sleepy..pop till my hand a lot of scar..I am gonna miss this stage of life..

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Ended my post @ 10:41:00 PM

Miss wing had fun! I was dumb..cos i think almost touched or wad..sudden surge of feelings..tears wanted to fall when the video played..cry baby..haha..but i controlled it well..haha..

Sat at the first row..whahahah..and the cameraman kept takin pix while i was doin some other stuff..stupid la..weilin kip posin for it and din even warn me..haha..

My greatest thanks to my parents..and family who sent their wishes..and greatest thanks to yongrong!! He came!! my onli fren who came..so touched..haha..took lotsa pix but it's not enough..thanks to him for being my cameraman oso..haha..xin ku lE!

Anyway..first time had make up..not a v thick one..but well..i felt different..haha..mayb make up boost one's confidence..or mayb it's my hair..hahaha..happy with my hair today..hee..now make me feel like not cuttin it..woke up super earli..but was energetic for the whole day..till now..1 am..duno why..juz dun wish the day to end so soon..

11 jul 2007..memorable day..28 jul 2003..inaug ceremony..also memorable..4 yrs juz past lidat..it's quite a pity that i wasn't involved in any soc..and cca..but well..no regrets..I just tot mayb ppl shudn't complain too much..I shall constantly remind myself that and not complain about other ppl too..mind ur own life..your own biz..yeah..shall try to keep that attitude..treasure frenship, family etc..others aside..

Okie..not makin a valedictorian speech here..cos I am not..ahhaha..but quite glad cos realised mayb my results are that bad as I tot they were..so =D just smile..and you will see the rainbow again..wanted to post the pix i hav taken..but...my memory card reader dun seem to b workin..sadZ..

Hmm..the ceremony took about 1.5 hr..and it's the first time i felt some sense of attachment to the sch..to the class of RE 2007..SDE..the city that never sleeps..haha..nice way to describe..stay postive always..that's the road map I should grab hold of in my hands now..

Aww..I still wana take pix~!! but after my new hair cut on sun..i hav to think twice..haha..

Sleepy me..shall sign off..

Continue again soon..

..New chapter..
..Brand New start..


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Ended my post @ 12:56:00 AM

The day is here~!

One more day...or rather..11 more hours to go..excited is the word to describe..all the preparation..shopping..and for the first time ever..i bought make up..hahaha..which i duno how to use..met a realli kind soul and i thank him for that..hee..

Although there is a bit of disappointment..cos all my frens wun b there..and someone else in particular..and bcos of that..i actually tot i would lose my temper or sth..but..it's no obligation for him to attend i guess..nvm..work more impt..so pls..ppl dun say anythin abt it le..haha..

Hmm..felt quite lost oso..mixed feelings sia..haha..finally can put on the curtain like robe..haha..with the hat that makes one look like a dumbo..haha..i wonder why do ppl look forward to wearin it so much..but the whole looks of it..realli smarT! One look at the mirror..i can't believe it's me!! Im finally graduating!! and steppin out into the society..all the responsibilty..financial probz..all comin in also..shall try not to think..

From this moment on..Wing shall remain cheerful..positive..dun find trouble with herself and think about all the unnecessary things..it's a brand new chapter of life from this moment on..Shud learn frm pres..Think she is realli a v thoughtful and matured lady now..haha..er..other than the siaoness that always stay in us..the gang..haha..but I m gonna miss ya girls~!! and my kor..and S4..aWw..hope we still get the chance to mit up often..

K la..shall sign off..nd to prepare le..shall continue tmr..mayb there will b more excitin stuff comin up..

Congrats to all who graduateD =)


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Ended my post @ 2:50:00 AM

This shud hav come b4 the previous post..but anyhow..updatez this week..

Sun..spent my entire day at GVYS..9.30am til like 2am den go home..tt's inclusive of dinner..total seh-Ed..but I had fun workin..mayb cos too busy so time past v quickly..plus was with serene, weixiong (heard the ying-xiong joke from fred ytd..), beng, alex..the ppl whom u work with is realli impt sia..haha..luckily the mgrs came out to help..

Mon..Tuition..chaos at work..i was too seh to do much..so onli cleaned the popper..sweet one..and washed the salted one..haha..ah rong stayed behind to help..mayb cos of somebody inside office so she stayed..*Shrugz* no idea wad's gg on oso..too many stories..the chaos came in the syrup room..tsk tsk..duno wad fred did that the dispenser ended up not workin..and we hav practically nth to sell..haha..was happy initially..cos dear came to fetch me home..(after makin him worry for the whole of sun..sorWee..) BUT..quite affected when i saw somebody la..nvm..shall not think too much..haha..no dinner for the few days..transformers realli attracted a big crowd..

Tues..went SP..den to JE..managed to borrow my bleach!!! i wan more of it!! so happy still..ahha..den down to vivo..for fan 4..! wanted to buy shoes..but no size..sobz..almost did impulse shoppin again..I wana own a bear!! hahaz..nvm..but vivo aircon too cold..made my brain freeze..cmi..end up goin home with a headache..

Still dun like vivo's chair..not nice one..the headrest too high..althou the leg room just nice..went to watch my wife is a gangster 3..quite nice..funny multi-lang movie...hahahaha..i shall learn and train to b a gangster..muahahaha..

Now brain tired..update enuff le..oh yeah..bought a ferris wheel!! hee..but jealous oso..i wana go taiwan..!! hahaz..

signin out..


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Ended my post @ 2:39:00 AM

Happy wing!

Relived my childhood days today..although I seem quite an idiot..and irritate my dear a lot with my crap..but too bad..that's me..haha..too much lame element within me..hope he dun mind..haha..

*DrUm Rollz*

It doesn't matter that I din get to go tour ard..at least I toured sg for a day..haha..went to a northern part of sg named mandai..near yishun..ard 20min bus ride..haha..everytime go sch oso went past..but nv went in..it was realli nice..the weather..a bit hot and humid..but lucky got occassional breeze..hee..furthermore i got my cap..(but poor dear was sweatin like crazy..)

So here the story goes..

Angwee in the earlier part of the day bcos toopid D*S commenced the interest before even notifyin me of the total outstandin..dotz..really wanted to burn down their building or sth..quite ridiculous..okie..i noe it's all in the contract but who the heck will go take a look at it after 4 yearS! crapz~ furthermore i dun even noe the total outstandin and methods of repayment how u expect me to pay! int w.e.f 1jul..and u send me the letter like today?!? 4 jul? total crap...

Anyway..happily went to shop at NTUC for tidbits like a pri sch kid going on excursion..haha..i was equipped with a pack of twisties, chachos, hello panda, donuts and 2 bottles of fluid..never leave home without them..haha..but end up i still hav panda and chachos..nvm..shall save for the next excursion or movie or drama..wahaha..

Bus 171 was cooperative..came in like 5 min maybe..the coolin aircon made the bus journey a pleasant one..if not i will juz die of bus sick..den the wait came..din noe which stop to alight..thinki was one stop earlier..but at least there was 138..haha..okie..waited quite some time b4 it came..mayb bus stop shud hav fans nx time..weli hot~ haha..

Finally..
the zoo..seemed quite nice..but every visit there reminded me of the snake which escaped and was circlin ard the bus stop roof~ so now everytime go past those roof I will take some precaution..

Quite fun overall..but juz that I dun understand why some of the animals were not in their enclosure! and most of the times the animals are ZzZing away..so wad Am I supposed to see? tsk tsk..

But still enjoyed myself..especially the animal shows and my crap la..ahha..and the children's world!! I played on the swing!! although it was meant for like 2-6 yrs old..hahaha..i still did it!! I love swingS! Bring me to a park where there is a swing and I think i can kip swingin there till the cows go home..haha..

So Sg has its beauty afterall..zoo is much better than shoppin..u get the nature..u get to hike..u get the fresh air..erm..on second tot..mayb not that fresh..the onli thing is u get the sweat and the mossiez bite..

Next up was AMK Hub! the exciting hangout..haha..took 138 all the way bac while playin hot brain..realli hot..i tink my reaction realli too slow..haha..had my xing fu!! Ichiban Sushi..Die..now I am havin some fetish for jap or sth..haha..kip havin jap these days..finally I can hav the non vege meal..no more eggy or tofu skin..haha..v xing fu and v filling..thx dear again..

Had sashimi for the very first time! the feelin is quite weird initially..cos nv eat raw b4..but tasted like some jelly or wad..i like the soy sauce and the ginger..nice nice..hee..had katsu don and the sashimi..and the kobeyaki..or sth lidat..ahha..the paper pot..oishi!! believe it or not..wing finished her rice! and the ocha..and everything..oh ya..not forgetin the chawanmushi..yummy! y din i take i pix of it..haha..had the custard cone oso..heavenly..heh..lucky din buy it at vivo ytd..hee..

With the bloated stomach..took a ride back to Ys..Home sweet home..wasn't quite tired..but still couldn't resist the temptation of transformers..optimus prime..and bumble bee! wootZ~ must watch..it's funny..and nice..all the autobots..effectz..simply great! laugh till peng inside..haha..the autobots realli funny..when they wanted to hide..hahahahaha...shan't talk more abt it..must watch!

"..the cars choose their owners.."
"..onli with sacrifice comes victory.."

wahahah..Wing had a fun day out! Look forward to more of it..!

Cos stayin out from the city life realli makes me forget everything! just hope to maintain this empty mind every single day..at least my head wil feel lighter =D


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Ended my post @ 2:08:00 AM