Wedding dinner..
for the first time in my life..
I went alone..
without my parents..
Was quite bored..
talked a bit here and there..
the food..
okay la..
not bad..
But..
as usual..
can't eat seafood..
so missing out a lot of things..

Wore contacts plus a little make up..
(to conceal my panda eyes)
And they said they can't recognise me..
Yeah..
must be too ugly that's y..
whaahha..

The ambience there was nice..
very Old shanghai that kind of ballroom..
the seating arrangement and all..
dim lights..
(which i dun understand y, cos it made me eat the fish with bone..
a hell of a torture..)
Ate a bit only..
then gave up on the fish..
dun like fishes with bones..

Should talk about the bride..
Aww..
sHe Was gorgeous..
i like her curls..
and then my snr ask..
do we look forward to our wedding day..
I dun think so..
the only thing i like..
is the gown..
cos it really makes u so princessy..
i mean of cos i need the looks first to be a princess..
wahahaha..
But she dun..
she said she dun wana b in the centre of attraction..
haha..
Well..
Guess she will be the next bride..
Which everyone is guessing..

So glad that he called..
and called early..
the only thing is I felt quite paiseh..
cos kip leaving the table to make the call..
Missed his calls for the first time..
OMG..
he must be so sian diao..
Sorry..
din mean it..
But get to talk longer than usual..
on two separate calls..
But it was good..
I m glad that he made frens with his bunk mates liao..
so..
he got his bunch of buddies to kip him company le =)

Hmm..
Din take the group photo cos i was outside..
But nvm..
dun like take pix with strangers..
too ugly..
haha..

Had a little red w***
Made my face blush on the way home..
Thx to the greedy guy who ordered for me..
and din take my share..
and my snr who made me laugh so hard on the way home..
It was only then that I realised I can't drink..
Kind of allergy oso..
like my dad..
cos drink a bit only..
then whole body red liao..
like lobster..

So paiseh..
Went home and they say the smell was strong..
OMG..
It was nice to go home with LW & his bro & my snr..
Cos talked crap there la..
And I found one more Liverpool Fanatic!
so qiao!
But then v paiseh oso..
cos when my snr ask me the names of the players..
I only know my gerrard and peter crouch and the carrot..and the abalone..
haha..
thx to him la..
I duno how to spell the name..
only rem the name he gave them..
But i really like them ma..
Just that after the change of players I duno them le..
still support them as a team..heh..
And offside..
I stil dun geddit..
Muz be a fool ytd..
haha..
but nvm..
talked more..
and got to know each other more..
Think my cabin partner is also another lamer..
haha..

Okie..
time for tuition..
aWait calls again.. =)
wOrth waiting..

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Ended my post @ 11:35:00 AM

Finally weekend is here..
It's the first weekend since I Started work to get to rest at home..
It's a nice feeling..
Cos I slept..
After lunch..
Sleep again..
Just dun feel enough of sleep..
Can't sleep any longer..
Cos ended up not doing the tasks that I am supposed to do..

Housework..
Not done..
Work Work..
Not done..
Crap..
and the best part..
I have got a wedding to attend later!

Fainted..

It's the first time Me giving angbao to someone older than me..
OMG..
I mean it's not to my parents or wad la..
But..yeah..my colleague..
OMG..

Haha..
It came as a shock to me to see the invitation..
Imagine you only join the co for less than a month..
And there u go..
receive an invi from a semi-stranger..
Wad the...

*DotZ*

Moral of the story:
Although Wedding is once in a lifetime..
Dun go for dinners..
It will make ppl broke..
and you will tire yourself out..
The best..
is maybe to have some buffet at the void decks..
Haha..
Or at chalet or home?

Hmm..
Muz b cost-saving..

Had donuts this week!
Thanx to my 1/3..!
How dumb of me not be able to guess that it's 3 donuts in a box!
Yummy delicious..
Love double choc and choc mint =D

Shall have it again sometime soon..
Maybe...Nx week?
Haha..
Doubt hav the time..
Sobx..

Ytd was my first time attending a meeting with somebody from the private sector..
Initially I tot was only one person..
then it turn out to be 5..
Gawd..
I feel like a dork..
Went there lookin like a dumbo..
Not knowing where am I going..
and what we will be discussing..
Sat right next to the vice president some more..
Kept looking at me and I din know wad to say..

But I have to admit..
It was a good experience..
Perhaps I am starting to like my job..
It's AO in name..
but we dun do AO's job..
I feel as if to change the name to AE..(Admin executive)
Wahah..can't think of a nice name at the moment..
cos the things we do..
are not only admin stuff..
but more to it..

There's the meeting..
the liaison (duno how to spell)..
the presentation..
the counselling..
the wadever..

Gawd..
Really chapalang job..
But yeah..
Maybe I am really getting to know the population ard here..
Lunch out and will get to say hi to ppl..
hmm..
nice feeling..

But yeah..
I am still soft hearted..
so perhaps some stuff I did was agnst my mgmt's policies..
Cos i dun bear to be harsh on the ppl we contacted..
Maybe cos I worked in CDAC before..
witness their plight..
hence was adapted to use the way of communication to talk to them..

No idea la..
But well..
Hope things go well fine..

Tot of getting a scholarship from MOE or even SIM..
haha..
for a second degree..
or maybe a masters..
haha..Second degree will do fine I guess..
cos I think maybe it's time to take up maths..
or even chinese and translation..
haha..
comments anyone?
Need some advice ard here..
If anyone is still reading..
hee..

7 more days..
Looking forward..
It'll really be a change..
And I really hope it can be a positive one..
Cos..
I guess I do not have the courage anymore..
If this is going to fail..
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Ended my post @ 3:42:00 PM

Crap..
I happily navigate away from this page while blogging halfway..
How blur can i be..haha..

Anyway..I was saying..
I miss talking on the phone..
ever since the world saw the birth of handphones..
SMS in particular..
talkin on the phone seems to be neglected..

Suddenly I felt that the change is good..
At least..finally..the phone comes into play..
It's really different from SMS-es..
Cos sms-es comes with no emo..
Easily misunderstood..

But for phone..
the sweetness..
the memories..
the happiness..
the lameness..
the crapiness..
the wadeva-ness..
stays..

that's y my dearest K club ppl stil prefer call to sms..

Yeah..
the change is really good..
at least, for now..
I dun dare to think too much into the future..
Though I wish to paint a beautiful picture..
Unless you are able to giv me an affirmative answer..
That we can think about some future..
If not..
Dun dare to think..

But really happy that you seem more open up..
at least I dun hear the sleepy u...
not the sian u..
It's a more hyper u..
a more talkative u..
which i prefer I guess..
Since everything is really dependent on communication..
No communication = End of story..

Hope this will stay..
Cos I am missing the phone calls..
Even though it may be short..
but yeah..it's sweet..
Just to share whatever we have done for the day..
the updates on our lives..
it's really good enough..
and I appreciate that..

When we have plenty of time..
We tend not to treasure..
When we dun..
We try to cherish every min n every sec..

Please..
I know I am just writing to the space..
but yep..
Hope phone calls stay..
No matter what..
No matter how..

As what I always look for..
Please be more talkative than me..
then I can be more talkative..
if not...
= no communication..
= mute wing..
= boring day/nite..

Shall end off..
eyes closing..
Even though I know you wun be reading..
deep in my heart i still hope u will read it..
Gdnitez..

To my KClub & S4 buddies..
I am yearning for a meet up amidst our busy schedule..
Kindly bear with me..
If I did giv you all any kind of attitude..
Thanks..
Love ya ppl..
And of cos misses to u =)


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Ended my post @ 11:31:00 PM

So very the fast...
The day that we dread..it came..and it went..
There was a sudden tinge of sadness..
When we said bye..
Could feel tears welling up in my eyes..
was it cos of the air con take makes my eyes tear?
Was it the harsh comment take I hav accepted at the dry run for presentation?
or..
was it..
I think that was what made me tear..well..just a few drops..

Mood totally smashed..
Din lunch with my dept babes although they waited for me..
Felt quite bad..
But i need some space for myself..
I dun wish to talk about work over lunch..
nor presentation..
Met up with my dearest cousin for lunch instead..
seems like both our moods aren't really good for the day..
But gal..thanx for the company...
Greatly appreciated..
cos it's really relaxing to lunch with u..
I mean sharing of some other stuff is much better than work..
Shall lunch together more often..
So glad that I work where you are ard =)

Anyway..lunch was a mood lifter..
Though we din eat anything proper..
apple crumble and choc walnut pie seems to do its trick..

The nite went off well too..
well spent with my family..
even though i was totally tired..
4 hrs of sleep and you spend the rest of your day awake..
It ain't an easy task..
But i survived..
Thanx to my dad too..and mum..
Quite hard on them when I am havin not enough sleep..

Had a nice (and awaited) surprise..
A call from an island a few hundred metres away from home..
ppl term it temptation island..
I term it survivor's island..
haha..
but treasured the calls..
cos it's not always that I received phone calls..
to chat..
even a short while..
it works..

Much better than seeing text messages that doesn't bring across much emotions and feelings..
Thanx..

Second day le..
My day filled with work as usual..
it was nice that I can still sms you..
Although I was a bit busy that I missed replying..
still waiting patiently...

Thx to my one-third..
Always cheer me on when I am down..
You are really a sweet fren! =)
It's sufficient sugar to lift up my mood I guess =)
You must also jiayou for A's..
My dear twin oso must jiayou for O's then will get inTo your desired course =)
Missed you all..
the laughter..the siaoness..the childhood memories =)
Shall see you all soon after exams..

As for you..
Must also jiayou..
Dun think you will get to see this..
But try to link la..hee..
No more sad sad tots le..
We will both do our best..
and not get stepped over by other ppl..
Nor lose to ourselves...our heart and mind...

This year's birthday will be one that I will look forward to..
I hope things are still fine though..
Then i can continue to look forward to the day..
and of cos not forgetting children's day eve =)
Will see you soon...

12 more days...
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Ended my post @ 10:18:00 PM

Cough Syrup hangover..does anyone suffer from such a hangover?

Maybe I did..cough syrup + insufficient rest + earthquake tremor = giddy me..

Haha..woke up feeling giddy..but din bother..force myself up and move on to work..got such a motivation..so admire myself..at work..blurry..off work sleepy..that summarizes my day basically..shan't delve much into the details..cos it's boring i guess..

Hmm..read some blog entries earlier..realised that I have been quite an unworthy friend..time and time again I have been thinking..is it worth putting a friendship on the ice..maybe yes maybe no..I haven found my answer..the problem with me is that I get envious over other people..be it achievement, looks or even the things they do...this all stems from low morale maybe..low self-esteem..oh no..here is the dejected me..

I wonder who is still reading this..haha..all busy with each other's work and school..oh well..just pouring out my tots..like me pouring them out to a valuable trash can..

Back to the topic..others seem to be getting on fine with their life..going out with new frens..enjoying the drinks..playing bball..swimming and even the beach..but me? pathetic life..the guilt still stays..living in the past..living in his/her shadow...this is really not working out for me..I am trying hard not to live in such a life..but time and time again..I will just see some info abt this particular person..and can't help but wonder..either why are we so similar...or why doesn't such thing happen to me..

Sigh...

That's the pain of losing one good fren..Regret or not? Hope I can find some answer...

Since he/she has already gotten on well in life..I should not dwell in this...absence may be a good thing...at least wun see him/her frequently..working together...that makes things worse..sometimes I wonder whether the niceness is just pure superficial..Cos my offer...seemingly got turned down..I also didn't know what make me gather such a courage to say out that invitation..alright..not say..but thru msn..but it's equally bad..Din talk since donkey years...and out of the blue..pop..here I come to say hi...I took the initiative...ya..means I value the friendship..so y did i make a decision that endanger it? Sigh..it really makes ppl irrational...

If I were to make the other choice..what would have happen? To have one more good fren...or maybe even 2 good frens...plus a broken heart maybe...either way...there will be pain inflicted..on others and on myself..

Maybe I just din weigh my facts right..give up an eternal happiness for a short term one..how would I know that it will be short term? Ya..maybe I really can see the crystal ball here...Perhaps this will be my one and only...or more appropriate to say...this may be my last..after this...maybe family and friends..are more important than anything else...cos at least..they are still the one who will always be with u..and who care..

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Ended my post @ 11:40:00 PM

Hmm..supposed to be lazing in liao..(and by right i wanted to do my ppt slides..drag so many days stil not done..sure kana killed..)

Suddenly feel like blogging..cos this is one of the fine days or rather nites that I thought the R is workin quite alright..At least felt at ease..duno was it because of my crazy mood today or wad..but things seem okie...It's exactly what I think things should be like..just like the good old days..haha..okie..the good old days is just pure frenship..nth else..but well..yup..A relaxing evening at my fave hangout since 10 yrs bac..amk..haha..

Had a nice dinner at Ichiban..hee..although vege...at least i got to eat udon..curry udon..haha..quite hot at the end of it...and the soup..paper steamboat..hee..yummy..! the thought of the soup just make me drool..haha..

Random walk around Amk Hub made me realised I was missing out on the treasures that they have in store..the coffee bear..it's nice..the parchment..meaningful..maybe I got sufficient rest..hence the gd mood..and clear mind..or maybe the nite is just rite..haha..Found out about the new ktv at AMK Hub..looks like nite club though..haha..but think should be quite nice..dun understand the pricing though..haha..

Anyway..better get back to work..if not will get slaughter by my hod..

Insights of education during lunch..

Hmm..Maybe I should further on studies as well..after repayin my tuition fees..

Nitez all..~

Wing goin for haircut..


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Ended my post @ 11:46:00 PM

Woah..it's been almost a month since I last touched this space..no wonder I see cobwebs growing..It's been a busy month..with me..falling sick..sobx..dun really like cough and flu and everything added tog..it's horrible..and the noise pollution I make wherever I go especially when I am in touch with the air con..sobz..

I have loads to say..but probably it's gettin late..and I am getting all hung up with my cough syrup..so..I shall keep this short..

Some stuff I learn about.."Billing truth is not the real truth.." so..there is nth known as truth huh? what u believe in will be the truth..so..the truth is all about the story that you compose? Confusing world we have..

The remainin philosophical stuff..i forgot wad i wana say..

Anyway..it's really fast..Sept is here..and the day is coming..goin to see another batch of frens go to the isolated island..what changes will be coming up next? I am not that sure..The problem lies in if I am able to accept and live with them..Instead of having the problems..I just tot of eliminating the whole root of it..the negative tots are poppin in my head again..mayb it's really not right..so instead of letting it drag and ended up a unhappy ending..will it be better to just cut it off before the pain aggravates? Duno la..Confusing..

The Subject that starts with R..is really a very tough one..I think I will never pass this subject..So maybe I should drop this subject for the rest of my life..Nobody knows how long I will be able to live..With the element in life..may also be a bit sian..But..someone just tell me wad is the diff between frens and this subject? hai..Duno..Maybe..again..I am not ready..Duno...

Everything also duno..also duno why I am blogging..

Anyway..should be joining a volunteer musical event next year..hope I can cope..hope things go well in work and in life..it's a hope..for it might not happen..

Crapz..

Mayb continue tmr..so shall say bye liao..

Nitez..

Dreaming of Muffins & cupcakes & donuts..


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Ended my post @ 12:55:00 AM