Monday, October 29, 2007
This entry..Suddenly tot of dedicating it to you..Someone who may not be reading this..and may not have the time to read..I may have been quite unreasonable..I guess wad ppl say is rite..Both of us are in the transition stage..Trying to adjust to our own lives..Yet are kinda trying to survive..That's why we cannot really think things through..and ended up just saying out hurtful things..Seriously hope that such a life can end soon..Hope we can finally settle down in our own lives..and move on with our lives..Just wish to apologize for cranking out..Hai..I wish that I can be a little stronger to withstand all this crap in life..But..I can't..still learning to grow strong..But..Still in the escapism mode..Just wana escape from life..Hope one day you will understand ba..I am not good in saying things out and expressing my tots well..That's why all my blog entries are so incoherent..Hai..Okay..shall end here..Before I get any more incoherent..Haa.....
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Had a great sat..Missed this life..Haven step onto the sandy ground for like a year..Singapore really has its gd hangout place..We don't need a drink, nor good food..We just need the sun, the sea, the breeze and a childish, innocent mind..and there you have it..A relaxed life..The past few weeks haven been wonderful..It's as if I am at the bottom of the pit..Yeah..I am not the only one suffering..I am making other people suffer also..Been an idiot for many many weeks..and I still am..Can't straighten out my tots..Wire having some short circuit..Hai..I miss myself..I miss my sleep..I miss the crazy girl..who can smile and smile for no reason..Even when she has her downs..She wun show it on her face..But not now..I wonder why she can't be any happy..Maybe books suit her more..Yet nobody seem to understand..Escapism is wad she seek..Maybe that's why she wish to return to school so much..Okay..she is in school..Just that in a different environment..The society..Cruel..Fakers..Really can't take it..Many times wana break down..And it's only for 2 months plus of the cruel reality..Hai.....On the bright side..I am in love with the sunny island..I love my dolphins..Pinkish dolphins..They are cute!
Super Lovable..Shall upload my acquisition soon..And pres..I am waiting for photos!I need a new camera..Hopefully there is a gd deal at the PC Show..Must save up!!Spent too much on sat le..But quite satisfied..Impulse shopping on my own seems like a great therapy for me..Bought a top and bottom at Newbie..and earn myself a row of badges and a membership card for my bro..But burnt my pocket for abt 10 days of lunch and dinner..Next was the brand with three stripes..Bought a cap..Yeah..nice..Black..Cos I can't find other colours..Nvm..It is nice..Since I already have a pink cap..another 4 days of lunch gone..so this few days must munch on bread liao..haha..(And I dun understand why my fave bread n noodles are havin increment..!)Saw the dolphins and the fishes..Maybe they are the only real ones around..I mean when we only see people with masks everywhere in the soc..Can the genuine peeps just stand up?Then there was the awe-inspiring song of the sea..The laser was wow..but the stupid guy at the souvenoir shop holding oscar..is..!@#$%okay..I am a gd girl..No vulgar..haha..crapz..made us wait n wait for them to adjust the camera and test it out..End up helped us take a blurry photo using our own cam..WTH..Spoiler lo..Hmm..Dinner was not as satisfying..with the wrong orders..and I had like alcoholic frappe..Can't even taste a bit of my choc mint..TCC was better..although..It made me end up havin gastric..haha..But I like the part on walking in the water on the roof @ Vivo!Finally I get the chance to walk there..It is quite refreshing..maybe it's cos i was there with 2 siao kia..haha..can always be my ownself..and just be as kiddish as possible..with nobody puking..or maybe they did..just din puke out..haha..Nonetheless..I miss the childishness inside me..haha..Cos being a child..is the best..free of worries..Can anyone just make me smile again?Like what we had on sat..Just wan pure fun, laughter, peace and me (joy)..haha.....The weekend was quite tiring..Cos went back to work again at my fave place..just that i was too tired to stay awake..Felt drifted apart from there..People change..I mean there are new ppl there..and I dun really know them..haha..and my dearest boss's fren..Won himself a PS3! OMG..can he just kindly donate it to me?I will be more than happy..haha..Shall maybe aim for my Wii.....Mon was back to the...kinda felt the Monday blues huh..But nvm..on the brighter side..4 more days to weekend..but i won't be stayin away from work..Hope it will be enjoyable.....I hope and I pray...that all the problems will be solved...Cos I am getting tired..I do not have the strength...I just pray for a happy life...Simple..but happy...Please smile..so at least it will giv me the strength to smile as well..=)...
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Ended my post @ 10:05:00 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Finally..I get to go back to my favourite place..it's the only place that I can smile..although..ya..qy say i still look as if many things are on my mind..i have to agree..the only thing is that i duno what is on my mind..Hopefully we can really go on the trip..but my schedule..hmm..duno if i can take leave..I just wana play play play! okay la..maybe I am stil sleepy now..Give me a break please..maybe i should buy myself a whole box of kit kat..haha..that may do the trick..Watched balls of fury on sat..but duno why i just can't LoL..haha..crapz..met Mcleen at Bishan too! Forgot she is working there le..so good..gave us extra cheese and bacon..nice! thanx mC! =DIt was the shortest day out so far..okay la..but it was enough maybe..before i can get into another round of emotional fit..Shall sign off le..hope i can get to update soon..I wan meet my S4! i wan meet my K club too..sell me time pleasE?
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Ended my post @ 9:29:00 PM
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Hi to all..Yeah..it's been almost 3 weeks since I set foot on this page..Shall do some updates..Life is...Currently busy with work...To the point that I can't really breathe...Imagine working almost 24hours a day and 7 days a week...I am dying from work...Mentally unstable also..haha..Prone to break down very easily...Which I did..and I think I am still breaking down..Not in the bestest mood these days...I kinda miss myself...The one who can smile...can crap...can lame all the way..But not now..I just feel tired..tired of everything...Can't really get into any mood..Just..Maybe feel like crying...Yeah it's dumb to cry...I would rather smile than cry...Sometimes I wonder y...That I will only cry to myself..Where there is nobody for support..No one to comfort me..When the shoulder is there...I will just stay strong and not drop any tears...But when I am alone..The tap just flow..It's time to find a plumber..haha..to fix the broken tap..For I don't wish to look like an idiot..Crying all alone on the train..I am really tired of holding it tight..I just wish to let everything go..But whether I can do it..May be a different story......Anyway..I was glad to make some friends at work...I realised girls don't really make good company at work...(I mean at my place..not to all the gd girlfriends I have now..)Maybe it's cos there is no conflict of interest..But yeah..At least guys know how to cheer you up..How not to add stress..How not to mention about work..Duno la..And I am really thankful for being in the same place as my dearest cousin..For sharing lunches and being a great company =)Really lets me destress abit though.....Been overworking my mind..hopefully tomorrow will be a better day..Cos I will be at my favourite place..and hope to see my long-lost friends..=)Take care to all..Pardon me for the missing updates..Been really bogged down by work...Cya all around..Sometime soon =)...Labels: Crappy mood..
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