Sunday, July 19, 2009
Here I am again..Not in the right kind of mood now..the accomplishment here is..I've completed another run..at least I can fully concentrate on my run at the moment in time..but the prob is..I always thought I have managed to brush the whole issue aside..or even dumped it away in my recycle bin..but apparently..I was entirely wrong..I was merely trying to avoid and escape the whole issue..which was at the surface of it..such that it turned up again somehow..sometimes I just hate being me..maybe I just like to think too much..I tried to convince myself that..no matter how life has in store for you..no matter how you face it..be it happy or sad..life still has to go on..so why worry and ponder so much over an unresolved issue?Now that's the problem..I don't even know what I really want..It's not just you don't know me..It's that I don't even know myself..Is this a common problem or is it just me?For all I know is I am a quiet and boring person..If I really want to be noisy..I will end up saying the wrong stuff or maybe not even making any sense..Best is..Don't talk..just try to sleep your way through or something..My mind is in a twirl again..every now and then I look at my blog..I felt stupid..cos it's nothing much but a bunch of ramblings and frustrations..so super negative that I don't even feel like reading it..probably I am just venting my anger/worries..or probably I am just trying to attract a little attention..especially for some one who do not know how to express herself and not even understanding herself..Seriously wish for happier things to happen..and that it can lift the smile on my face..for now..ever since I graduated..it has always been =(...
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Ended my post @ 1:24:00 PM
Friday, July 17, 2009
忽然有种向往出国念书/工作的念头这是否是我逃避难题的方法？或许是吧不知为什么明以为已经被时间冲淡了已经能够摆脱过去的一切想想过去所做的事是不值得的但是偏偏却没法摆脱那一切的回忆目前的工作压力是与日俱增老板才刚告知下个月起将实行强制性加班还蛮沮丧的虽然周六都有回办公室加班但是至少已补充了睡眠再回去拼搏的啊若是周日得加班对我的工作效率而言可是急速下滑的嗨~真的好累啊...
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Ended my post @ 12:04:00 AM
